Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Absent at the end of '13

The last time I posted it was mid-October. I received an email that broke me a bit if I'm being completely honest.  These entries...this blog is me being raw & as honest as I possibly can be. Just talking about my weight issues, in any form, is a huge step from where I was a few years ago, but putting all the confusing emotions into words is an extreme struggle each and every time.

The email that I received said that I was disgusting and shouldn't put my picture/weight out there for everyone to see. I have hid myself away for so long believing that very thing & it has taken such a long time to feel ok with talking about who I am...fat and all. 

I didn't respond to the email but I did let the words soak into my soul like a black ooze. I've been down, sad...broken for months and haven't talked about it. At the time it felt like a "don't tell" approach was the best idea. Mom was dealing with "maybe" cancer in the lungs. My husband is constantly dealing with excruciating back pain and my issues just seem small when compared. The problem with not telling, not talking is there is no outlet for the pain. Turning to the blog was my way dealing, but after the letter I didn't think I should post anymore. 

Do you see the never ending circle of needing to talk but then feeling like I can't? The last few months have sucked, but with the new year comes changes. I've received a hell of a lot more messages of support and understanding & I'm sorry that I let that one letter sidetrack me. 

I didn't do anything wrong by sharing what I going through. I'm not the only one who is dealing with weight and there are definitely not enough people talking through it (I know...I was one of those that couldn't or wouldn't for a very long time).

I'm still here, still dealing & struggling, still hopeful for 2014.

If you are reading this, dealing with your own weight, or just supportive of those who are struggling - talk & comment. 


Adios to 2013 and to the hateful people that feel better by being cruel to others.

-Cat

Sunday, October 27, 2013

setbacks, menus, loss....OH MY!

Holy cannoli!  October has really been a rough one for my family.

First off, I'm sorry for being gone for almost the entire month.  This blog has become an outlet for all the stuff I'm dealing with that I feel I can't say to anyone in person...and I shouldn't have neglected it.

Like a lot of families in the US during the first part of the month, we were worrying over the government shutdown.  Since my husband is a disabled veteran, half of our monthly income comes from the VA.  For the entire two weeks, I was in a constant state of stress and worry over the possibility that we wouldn't be able to make November's mortgage payment.   I tried to have faith that it would all be OK, but in reality I wasn't handling it very well.  I was losing hair and a few times turned to food for comfort which would lead to me feeling guilty.  It got to be too much and I made the decision that I wasn't going to focus on my eating habits as much while it was all going on.  I still tried to watch what I ate, but that decision released a bit of the pressure I was feeling.

You know that cosmic rule...you know the one that says that when something goes wrong...everything goes wrong?!  Oh you don't?  Well, I have proof that it indeed is a rule.  During the shutdown, my stove broke so not only did I have to worry about making a house payment next month, but now I needed to find $100 to pay for the repairs. Oh and we had plumbing issues....you know the kind where your sweet, loving, and carefree child decided that he JUST HAD TO put rocks down that pipe outside.  Well that pipe became clogged with rocks as big as my fist and water started flooding my laundry room.  $300 dollars later my husband (yep the one with the back injury) is digging a 6 1/2 feet deep hole around the pipe so he can remove the rocks.  At almost midnight with my help, he was able to replace the pipes and rebury it.  Can you say STRESS?!
Lit up by my headlights, Steven attempts to fix the pipes.
Fortunately, the government figured something out in the eleventh hour so Steven will get paid in November. All the repairs that we had to do hurt our savings a bit, but we'll survive to fight another day.  Oh and I got a job...at a stay at home job no less which is AMAZING!  

The last month has been a roller coaster of emotions, but I'm settling back into a routine and feel pretty optimistic for what's to come.

I've started planning my menus again so I feel like I'm more in control of what the family is eating. Our family usually eats leftovers for lunch and what I make for breakfast is ALWAYS based on how awake I am :D  It does help to know how much (calorie-wise) a dinner is going to be so I can eat accordingly the rest of the day.  

What I'd like to know is if anyone wants any of these recipes?  If you do I'll make a post or two for them.

I have not been on the scale since the last time I weighed in for this blog.  I didn't want to put that knowledge in my head while I was dealing with all of the crap this past month.  Tomorrow will be the first time in over a month that I do and to be quite honest...I'm nervous.  I have no clue what it will say and that scares me a bit.  The decision I made to not focus on my eating habits was the right thing for me at the time, but I know there will be consequences.  

OH I'm also considering transferring this blog over to a different site.  I can't seem to fix the comment issue and I like being able talk with everyone.





Monday, September 30, 2013

Workouts - Arms and Shoulders (part 1)

I have been searching/collecting workouts and exercises for a long time.  Some of them are easy and some...well some really suck A LOT!  I have found muscles that I did not even know existed, and when you work a muscle that has been hidden for thirty years it can take a bit to feel not so sore.

Most of my workouts/exercise have been written down in a notebook with no clue as to where I got them from. In an attempt to make it easier to find what I need when I need it I'm putting it on here.  I also figure that it might help someone else that's not sure what to do in the gym or when they workout at home.

Things I should mention:
1 - If I can find one, I'll provide a video with an explanation of the needed movements.
2 - I don't do all of these in one workout....I'm not crazy.
3 - When it comes to choosing a weight, please be careful.  I am a very strong woman with powerlifting in her past.  If you can only manage a 10 or 15 lb weight go with that until you feel stronger!  Injuring yourself is not going to help at all!
4 - Some of these WILL FEEL SILLY when you are first trying them!  Don't let embarrassment over-shadow the benefits you will get from exercising!!  I use my phone to look up new exercises all the time to make sure I'm doing them correctly.
5 - Talk to the personal trainers, gym employees, and even those that are working out around you; however, don't bother someone that has headphones in and/or is really concentrating on their own workout.  I have learned that the gym can truly feel like a community if you let it.
6 - BREATHE! Using proper breathing while lifting is just as important as doing the exercise itself.  Oxegen!  Our muscles need it to function plus it can aid in the lifting/pulling of weights.  Don't forget to breathe.


Monday, September 16, 2013

Weigh In Monday

Well, it has been a rough few weeks.  I leaned on old crutches and indulged in old habits more than I should. My emotions influenced my actions on more than one occasion which, in the past, have put me into a downward spiral; however, I am happy to report that it did not.  I stumbled but didn't put myself down. Before I started, I made myself a promise that when I screwed up I would keep going.  Maybe that is why my weigh in results from this week are not so horrible.

I did gain .8 of a lb back, BUT I have still lost 19 lbs and over 50 inches overall.  Hopefully, I will break the -20 mark by next Monday.




Friday, September 13, 2013

Absent This Week

Sorry I’ve been gone this week (absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?).  A rollercoaster has fewer twists and turns then my life this week.

A few things you should know:
1: The last few weeks I have kicked proverbial butt! I’ve been eating healthy, moving more, and not making fun of myself.  Yep, the last few weeks have been good.
2: I truly care about the people in my life.  Sometimes to my detriment but I do.  I’m often the first to offer help whether it is in the form of a shoulder to cry on, chicken soup or loaning some cash.
3:  There is emotion boiling under the surface at all times…the good and the bad.  This mixed with my tendency to care too much can lead to trouble.  I have known for a long time that this combination has contributed to my weight gain in the past.  I say “in the past” because I believed I had moved past it but apparently not.

This past week I was asked to take a friend down to SLC so he could be with his family.  I’m a road trip junkie and jumped at the chance to help out a friend.  It wasn’t until we got down there that he told me that his marriage was ending.  Both of these people were my friends and I felt for them both.  I was there when they went to talk and saw the heartbreak and tears.  Honestly, it rocked me to my core.  You can’t comfort someone going through something like this…you just can’t.  So I said my goodbyes and headed home thinking the entire way that I wished I could have helped out….made them feel better….anything to help my friends.

Halfway home, I stopped in Drummond, MT to clean out the car and my aptitude for injury reared its ugly head.  Somehow, I managed to remove a three inch strip of skin off my shin (btw don’t do this…it hurts like the flames of hell are licking your skin). By the time I got home I was exhausted, sad, and in pain.   My poor husband!  He got to watch his wife laugh, cry, and then question if she was going crazy…over and over again.

I don’t do well when I’m exhausted.

It’s now Friday and I am well rested, but my leg still feels like I’ve taken a potato peeler to it.   I’m also still incredibly sad but I’ve now added anger to the mix.  I get that I can’t fix or help everyone….it isn’t even my responsibility to try, but this is who I am!  I feel sadness that a friend’s marriage is over. I feel for the kids who are going through this.  Now, I’m also angry.  I’m angry that my so called friend isn’t speaking to me any longer because…well I’m not really sure.  Maybe it’s because I drove her husband down to SLC? Maybe it’s because...hell I don’t know! I didn’t do anything wrong.  I was a good person and a good friend. 

For the last four days I have let the loss of this friendship eat away at me…while I ate crappy fatty food.  I’ve tried to deal with the issue directly but you can only do so much when they won’t answer their phone.  I’ve tried exercising the anger and stress away but my leg isn’t cooperating.  So, after going through the known ways of dealing, I fell back to comfort eating.  The only difference is now I instantly regret doing so.

So as of today, I’ve decided that I’m letting that friendship go completely.  I can’t stress and worry over this anymore.  I have my own problems that I need to deal with.  I hate to say it but it’s probably better this way.  Yes, I care…probably too much, but if a friendship is going to make me act like this I don’t need it.

  Tomorrow is a new day with healthier food choices, a clearer head, and good friends I can count on.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Bad Habits Can Suck It!

You know, you grow up learning how to do things a certain way.  You watch those that you live with, learning how they doing things and you mimic them.  Those habits then become who you are when you finally leave the nest and live on your own. 

Now, some of those habits are wonderful…helpful even.  I can thank my mom for teaching me to always rinse my plates/bowls out when they are put in the sink (don’t faint, mom! It’s shocking that it sunk in…I know!) . My Aunt gave me the habit of ALWAYS hanging the bath mat over the edge of the tub when you are done showering.  See these habits are helpful, and let me look like less of a slob. 


Some habits…well, some habits suck!  They are the type of habits that ruin your health, your self-esteem, and your confidence. I refuse to lay blame with my upbringing for these types of issues.  Yes, I did learn a lot of them growing up, but now that I’m an adult I take full responsibility.  Being master of my own destiny and all that…I can’t say I’m in charge of who I am to be if I keep looking back to blame people from my past.

To be honest, I really felt like I had a handle on my bad habits.  I had not eaten anything from a drive-thru or a gas station.  I made sure that the only thing to pass my lips past 7 pm was water.  I didn't make a single joke about myself to make others laugh.  I didn't make any excuses to get out of exercising.  I have been well behaved and a different person lately…that was until Tuesday.


On Tuesday I drove up to Glacier for some time with my camera.  Like I have done in the past, I stopped at the gas station on the way out of town to fill up the gas tank.  I swear that was all I was going to do, but BAM next thing I know I've gone in the store and bought all sorts of junk food for the trip.  The old me used to do this all the time.  She would go and buy a bag of chips, a couple of candy bars, and a few bottles of water. But the new me is different.  I didn't even realize what I had done until I was in the car and 10 miles down the road!

At first, I was disappointed in myself and in the fact that I was doing something the old me would do.  I must have looked like a loon talking to myself…swearing that I would take them to Steven’s work so I wasn't tempted.  HA! I should have known better. What I should have done is stop and thrown it all away (except the water…we all need our water!).  Well, half way up Glacier I was stuck in construction and got bored.  Yep! I broke open the chips.


See, my BIGGEST bad habit is eating when I’m not hungry…just bored.  It’s such a simple thing but so damn hard to break myself of.  At home, I have been doing really well with avoiding the “I’m bored so let’s see what there is to munch on” feeling, but in that car I wasn’t able to face down the temptation. 

The good news is that I didn't give in to my second bad habit of making myself feel guilty.  In the past I would have let the fact that I ate when I was bored get to me.  I would put myself down, which would leave me feeling like “I am never going to lose any weight because I can’t make it a single day without screwing up!!”  Feeling like this would cause emotional eating, my third bad habit!   


Do you see where I’m going with this?  One bad habit would lead to another and another and another!  In the end I would be left feeling sick from over-eating, sad for how I was seeing myself, and feeling that there was no hope that anything would ever change. 

Yes, I stumbled and I could have done better BUT I looked at it for what it was…a mistake.  In that moment I realized that I’m going to slip up occasionally and that I need to learn from it and move on.  Realizing and accepting that it was a one-time mistake kept me from putting myself down, feeling bad, and comforting with food.  One bad habit resurfaced but THAT WAS ALL!



So now I know that I need to be uber-aware of my actions when I’m doing something familiar.  I can’t rely on auto-pilot and expect a different outcome until I have changed my habits for the better.


Monday, September 2, 2013

Monday Weigh In

*eyes first mini-goal*

“Oh yeah baby! You are mine next week! Don't be scared. It’s going to happen. Besides, why would you fight the inevitable?!” This is my mind set after weighing in and taking my measurements for the week. 

As of today, I have lost 19.8 lbs and a total of 48.05 inches. Yep, you read that right! I had to re-weigh and measure myself three times to make sure I wasn't doing it wrong, but the numbers came up the same every time



Being bullied as a kid, I have this horrible “I can’t do anything really well” mindset most of the time. I mean I know that I can do things well, but I can never really be proud of what I’m doing without putting myself down at the same time. I'm not the only one who does this right? 

Take my photography for instance. I'm insanely passionate about it. I want to capture the world and the people that I see around me.  My friends and family have all said that I'm talented and that I could really do something with it.   I would love to build a clientele base...to make a career out it; However, I can hear in my doubt in my mind…the worry that I'm not good enough. 

But my weight loss…the shrinking size? I’m doing it! The proof is on the scale and the measuring tape. It’s in the pants I have to keep pulling up and the shirts I’m wearing that were WAY TOO TIGHT to fit into the same time last year.

<3 - Cat

Oh I'm still not sure if I have fixed the commenting issues.  If you try and comment and it won't let you please leave me a message on my FB so I know whats going on.  Thanks

Saturday, August 31, 2013

commenting

I have had a few people tell me that they have been unable to comment on the posts I have been making.  I believe that I have fixed it now.

Friday, August 30, 2013

What's on the Menu? Pan-Seared Sea Scallops over Spicy Thai Noodles




This is the perfect meal to make on days where your evenings are going to be hectic!  The noodles can be made ahead of time and set in the refrigerator until it’s time to serve and the scallops cook up in just a few minutes.

Before I get into the recipe, I wanted to talk about the scallops for a moment.  The only experience I’d had with scallops before last night was watching Hell’s Kitchen where Ramsey screams that they are burnt/rubbery/still finding Nemo.  If a professional chef can mess up scallops so often, what hope did I have? 

I knew from being a food-info reading junkie that there are three sizes and two types of scallops….sea, bay, and calico and dry or wet. Sea scallops are 2 inches in diameter or bigger while the bay scallops are much smaller.  Calico scallops are similar to the bay scallop in size and color but they are less sweet. Dry refers to a natural scallop, while wet refers to a scallop that has been injected with solution of sodium tripolyphosphate or STP.  STP is a preservative that causes the scallop to soak up excess water.  Why is this important?

Besides the whole “eating chemical solutions” agreement, dry scallops weight less so when you are buying them you will be paying for just the seafood instead of the water weight inside of them.  A dry scallop also browns better then a wet scallop since it does not have excess water that will be released during the cooking process.  Oh and let’s not forget that wet scallops shrink…we’re talking almost 40% smaller once they are cooked!!

When you are purchasing your scallops and want dry, look for ivory to beige coloring.  Scallops treated with STP will be bright white and are very wet to the touch.  Now if you decide to purchase frozen scallops, look at the list of ingredients.  Any scallop that has been injected will have it listed.  Also if you are buying fresh, make sure to smell the scallops if at all possible!  They should smell clean and sweet!  If it has an overly-fishy smell, don’t buy them.

Now, if you are like me and live in a land-locked area with a very limited or non-existent access to fresh seafood, your only option is to cook with frozen wet scallops.  To combat the STP, I thaw the scallops in cool running water.  Once they are thawed and drained, I lay them out on paper towels to absorb as much of the water as possible (you may have to change out the paper towels if they get too soaked) before I cook them.
*Lecture is over*

OK, now to the good stuff!


Pan-Seared Scallops with Thai Spicy Noodles
Serves 8

Ingredients
1 (1 lb) box  linguine fini, cooked and drained
1 tbsp crushed red pepper
3/4 c sesame oil
6 tbsp honey
6 tbsp soy sauce
1/2 c chopped green onions
2 carrots, shredded
1/2 c chopped cilantro
3/4 c honey roasted peanuts, chopped
24 sea scallops, if frozen – thawed
Salt and pepper (optional)

1/2 c olive oil – for cooking

Directions:
Turn oven to 250° and place oven-safe plate inside.

Sprinkle scallops with salt and pepper (optional)

Combined the crushed red pepper and the sesame oil in a sauce pan over med heat; strain the oil (discard the crushed rep pepper).

Combined the red pepper-sesame oil with the honey and soy sauce, whisking until blended.
Pour the oil mixture over the cooked pasta, tossing for even coating, and store in fridge until chilled. *If you prefer the noodles hot you can skip the chilling part, but the flavors will not be as pronounced*

While the noodles chill, heat the olive oil in a medium to large skillet *I prefer to use cast iron* on med-high heat.  When the oil starts to shimmer, lower the heat to med-low and sear scallops in batches. *Depending on the size of the skillet, doing more then 4-5 scallops at a time will cause them to steam rather than caramelize* 

Once the scallops are in the pan, let them cook for 2-3 minutes without interruption before turning them over.  This will create the caramelized yumminess you’re looking for!  Flip and cook for another 1-2 minutes.

When the first batch is done, remove them from the pan and place on the plate inside the oven.  Repeat with the remaining scallops  *I place a paper towel on the plate to soak up any remaining liquid, but be careful doing so since it is paper in a hot oven*

 To serve 8:
1 cup of the noodles
3 scallops
 2 tbsp grated carrot
 1 tbsp chopped cilantro
1 ½ tbsp chopped peanuts



For my family, since there are only 3 of us, I only cook 9 scallops at meal time.  The remaining noodles, veggies, and nuts get tossed together and placed in the fridge for lunch over the next few days. 



This is one of my favorite “easy” meals! I hope that you and your family enjoy it as much as mine does!!


<3 - Cat




Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Who Do You See?

When you look at pictures of yourself, what do you see? How about in the mirror? What about in the eyes of your family and friends?  Self-perception has such a big affect on how we live our lives, what we think we deserve, and the way we love ourselves.

I've been giving my self-perception a lot of thought over the last few days, and have come to the conclusion that I have let the words of others influence the way I see myself for far too long.  As an adult, I am still letting the horrible words said to me as a child color my thoughts…despite the fact that I now know they were said to hide their own insecurities and pain.

So I've come to a decision!  The words of the past will not affect how I see myself any longer!  I'm better than that and deserve better.  We all do!

From now on I will remember and believe that I am and have always been

…a good daughter


…sassy

…a dork

...cute



… goofy



…a great wife


…smart


…a valued friend 


...a loving mom


...an artist

…and one hell of a cook!

I get that others might not see me the way I see myself...and thats ok!  They can see what they want to see, but isn't it time that we all start seeing for ourselves who we are?

<3 -Cat

Monday, August 26, 2013

Monday weigh in

This last week did not have me at my best.  I would love to use all the glorious food from my husband's birthday party as an excuse but I'm not going to. The real reasons my week wasn't what it could have been. I snacked late at night a few times and I skipped breakfast then over compensated later in the day.

Yes I messed up a few times over the last 7 days but I also did a lot right.  I didn't give up for the rest of the day when I had something unhealthy.  I didn't doubt myself or what I was capable of.  I sweated my butt off dancing around the house...I mean cleaning the house.  I didn't make a single joke at my own expense.  I didn't roll my eyes when my husband said I was beautiful.  They aren't huge victories, but a win is a win, right?!

On to the scale....




I'm a bit shocked over the inches lost since I started all of this.  I'm happy to report that I've worn a few shirts I haven't fit into in years, and my normal clothes have been feeling looser which is a big boost to my self esteem.  I do dread the measuring process, but its nice to have the numbers show "something" is happening when I don't feel like I can see a difference.

<3 - Cat


Friday, August 23, 2013

Dinner time: Poblano-Shrimp Enchiladas and a Marinated Veggie Salad

My dad was by far the biggest fan of Mexican food I have ever met.  He liked it all...and the spicier it was the better.  I, however, am a complete wimp when it comes to spicy.  I think that it has its place but I don't get excited for "blow the top of your head off" level of hot!

Tonight I made poblano-shrimp enchiladas and a marinated veggie salad, and I would like to think that even without the intense heat my dad favored, he would have asked for seconds on this.  Oh and the best part...it was only 450 calories for the ENTIRE PLATE!! 

I will say this…If I had lacked the proper motivation to cook; I more than likely would have gone through the Wendy’s drive thru.  I would have probably ordered a pretzel burger, large fry, and strawberry lemonade from Wendy’s for 1610 calories in a single meal.  That is a 1160 calorie difference between the two meals!!  It blows my mind how easily if would have been to wreck my diet for the day with a single visit to a fast food joint!

Now on to the recipes!

*the photos look anemic due to my lack of planning and the storm that kept me from photographing outside.  Don't let it scare you away from trying this yummy meal at home!!* 



Poblano-Shrimp Enchiladas

3/4 pound unpeeled, medium-size fresh shrimp 
1 tablespoon olive oil
Cooking spray
1 large poblano pepper, halved and seeded
1 large onion, chopped 
1 tomato, chopped 
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
1/4 teaspoon ground cumin
1/4 teaspoon pepper
1/2 cup fat-free sour cream 
8 corn tortillas
1 (10-ounce) can green enchilada sauce
3/4 cup shredded Monterey Jack cheese

Peel shrimp, and devein, if desired. Coarsely chop shrimp, and set aside.

Spray an 11- x- 7-inch baking dish with cooking spray and set aside.

Sauté the pepper in the olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat until skin looks blistered. Remove from skillet, and chop.

Return the chopped pepper to skillet. Add the onion and next the 5 ingredients – sautéing 4 s the chopped shrimp and sauté 1 minute; remove from heat, and cool 5 minutes. Stir in sour cream.

Heat the tortillas according to package directions. Spoon the shrimp mixture evenly down center of each tortilla and roll up. Arrange, seam side down, in prepared pan. Top with sauce, and sprinkle with cheese.

Bake at 350° for 25 minutes or until thoroughly heated.


 

Marinated Vegetable Salad

1 cup diced tomatoes 
1 cup diced zucchini 
1 cup diced mango
1/2 cup thinly sliced green onions
2 tablespoons minced jalapeños
1 (15-ounce) can black beans, drained and rinsed
1/2 cup bottled salsa 
3 tablespoons fresh lime juice
1 1/2 tablespoons canola oil

Combine first 6 ingredients in a large bowl.

Combine salsa, juice, and oil, stirring with a whisk. Pour dressing over tomato mixture

Cover and chill 1 hour.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

What’s your kryptonite?

*warning* you can see my geek showing a bit in this post!


What do Superman, Wonder Woman, and Daredevil have in common?

Well, Superman has a weakness to the powerful green rock.  Wonder Woman was rendered weak by having her hands tied together...by a man.  Daredevil was crippled by too much noise. 

Every superhero has a weak spot that keeps them from being at their best, and while I’m no superhero…I too have an Achilles' heel.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Monday + Weight In = ready take on the week

So I stepped on the scale this morning and while I didn't tell it to shut up like last week I was happy with the number.

I only lost -1 this week and I'm ok with that!  Its still a loss which means I weigh less than I did last time.  Losing weight is so hard on its own and I'm not going to make it even harder by not accepting the smallest of victories.



Hopefully I'll see bigger losses next week!  

Now I get to go sweat like mad....doing housework :D

<3 - Cat

Sunday, August 18, 2013

No post (this) sunday

I have been up for almost 31 hours at this point and I'm slightly delierious. All attempts at a video are not working.  I'm off to make dinner then to bed for a very long time.

Until tomorrow, world!
<3 - Cat

Friday, August 16, 2013

What's on the menu? Crawfish Étouffée

This is one of my favorites! If you try it let me know what you and your family think of it.  My family adores this one, and mini is already asking when I'm making it again.  

If you are a shy cook, please don't skip over this without considering it first!! It may sound fancy or too advanced for the less adventurous, but in truth the hardest part is browning the flour...and thats really simple. 

I chopped and measured out everything that the recipe called for first so when I finally did start cooking dinner, from start to finish, it only took me about an hour to get the whole meal on the table for us to devour.  




Crawfish Étouffée

4 cups fat-free, less-sodium chicken broth
1 teaspoon dried thyme
1 teaspoon dried basil
1 bay leaf
1/3 cup butter, divided
1/2 cup all-purpose flour (about 2 1/4 ounces)
Cooking spray
1 1/2 cups chopped onion
2/3 cup diced celery
1/2 cup chopped red bell pepper
1/2 cup chopped green bell pepper
3/4 cup water
1/4 cup tomato paste
1 tablespoon Creole seasoning
1 1/2 teaspoons minced garlic
1/4 teaspoon black pepper
1/4 teaspoon ground red pepper
1 teaspoon Worcestershire sauce
1/2 cup chopped green onions
1/2 cup chopped fresh flat-leaf parsley, divided
1 pound crawfish (tail meat) precooked, thawed if frozen
4 cups hot cooked long-grain rice

Combine the following ingredients in a small saucepan over medium heat until it begins to simmer.  Cover and remove from heat.
4 cups fat-free, less-sodium chicken broth
1 teaspoon dried thyme
1 teaspoon dried basil
1 bay leaf

Melt 1/4 cup butter in a medium saucepan over medium heat.
Add the flour to the pan with butter in it & cook 8 minutes or until it’s very brown, stirring constantly with a whisk. *be very careful that it does not burn! Being very brown and burnt are two different things.*
Remove from heat. Add 1 cup of the broth mixture to the pan - stirring with a whisk until its smooth.
Add the remaining 3 cups of the broth mixture - stirring with a whisk until smooth; set aside.
Melt the remaining butter in a large Dutch oven (coated with cooking spray) over medium-high heat.
 Add the following ingredients to the dutch oven and cook 10 minutes or until vegetables are tender and onion is golden brown, stirring occasionally
1 1/2 cups chopped onion
2/3 cup diced celery
1/2 cup chopped red bell pepper
1/2 cup chopped green bell pepper

Stir in 3/4 cup water, scraping pan to loosen browned bits. Add the tomato paste, Creole seasoning, garlic, black pepper, and red pepper to onion mixture - cook 1 minute, stirring constantly.
Add the broth-flour mixture and Worcestershire sauce to pan, stirring well to combine; bring to a simmer. Cook 10 minutes, stirring occasionally.
 Add green onions, 1/4 cup parsley, and crawfish; cook 3 minutes or until crawfish is heated thoroughly. Discard bay leaf.
 Serve over rice and sprinkle each serving with the 2 teaspoons of remaining parsley

Makes 6 servings (1 1/2 c etouffee and 2/3 c rice)



*The crawfish that I used for this was bought at Walmart in the frozen seafood section

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